Nazarite

God told Samson's parents that he would be a Nazarite. That means he shouldn't cut his hair or drink the fruit of the vine. For some reason my Dad told me to have long hair growing up. I was never full Nazarite but a little bit. I went to a party and fell asleep and they shaved my head. I always had a sensitivity wine but not to herbs so much I don't know why. Paul said it is a shame for a man to have long hair and I grew up with the shame or embarrassment of having long hair. Samson let Delilah cut his hair and he lost his strength. I have always been scrawny also but God has helped me see that he is my strength because of it. My Dad wanted to name me Jesse like a girls name but my mom named me Jason. Jesus is Jah Son. Jesus means JAH is salvation and he is Jah Son. My last name is Blackburn like the color Black. My father bought me a very old saddle and the brand is a nigger boy saddle. I worked as a herdsmen on the mountain and lived alone but grew up riding horses up there also. God's creation is hair even beards I believe. God does make us the color we are and gives us a name I believe also. Jesus helped them with wine from God I believe also a little bit more. I love God of creation and what a amazing artist God is. I have been to Brazil and the Philippines and seen the tropical and jungle a little bit and thought it was amazing. I love the beach and the ocean also. Psalm 119 has a part about the jod which is the Hebrew letter j. It is the I also and the dot on top of the i I believe also. It is God's name also and says that it is God who fashioned me and who afflicts me. I believe it is about the Son and seeing God as your creator and who deals with you and who is real to you in your life. Jesus knew more than anyone I believe that he was God's son and God's creation and that the Father crucified him and rose him from the dead. God was very real I believe in his life and death and resurrection. I always thought that appearances are nothing also like Jesus said and hair and color is nothing but God looks on the heart. But I do believe that God created our hair and created my body also even though I am small and skinny and weak but he can be my strength. I also believe God is my wisdom and creativity to do art. Praise the Lord hallelujah. Sometimes I still shave my head just to show people that appearances are nothing and my hair is nothing but maybe God can help me grow it long again and my beard to see that it is God's creation and fine. I don't understand what Paul is saying when he says it's against nature for a man to have long hair that don't make sense in some ways because I believe man invented siccors but God gave hair. Paul also said it's nothing to be contentious about and I believe that. Jesus was from Nazareth and maybe that comes from the word Nazarite as a town. I am from Redmond Utah where a few people have long hair and love rock music growing up especially Christian rock. The Mormons was always looking down on me and Christians also for having long hair but I knew that God loved me and could see in my heart and didn't care what they said. I have always liked women and ain't gay. I believe God created my penis and woman's vagina also and they fit with each other and it's fine. I always loved riding horses and looking at the rocks and cliffs and nature and always believed how much God is a mystery and beyond understanding but helps us see who he is. The wind and rain beat on me and also helped me believe in the Spirit when God was ready. God is Spirit and Truth and the true worshippers worship in Spirit and in Truth. It is embarrassing sometimes to have long hair like Paul says but I believe it's fine also as the creation of God and not to worry too much about what people think. I believe it's fine to be black also or white but whatever God created that also and I believe he helped me with the name Blackburn also to help me realize I am black from birth and not really white. Nobody is really that white and it's silly people think they are white maybe very much also except for maybe powder on TV but not much also. People are all a little bit brown probably but whatever color we are God created that and we should respect one another because of him as the creator. My wife is part baracuta and African from Brazil and I believe she is very beautiful and my children also and I love her brown eyes also God gave her I have blue eyes God gave me. My parents divorced and I come from a biracial family in a way also and don't like racism everybody is God's creation and it's good to respect God as creator. Christ is within Paul wrote also not just outside. I like the song of songs also in the Bible. I believe God can make us bald also whatever or help you grow your hair long as his creation whatever or say who cares about the external and shave your head also whatever. Who cares what color we are also too much maybe just external things but also God created beautiful women with dark skin and people and me a little bit also with a name black. I am a little bit unnatural Paul wrote about also but a unnatural person can see the Spirit and is a creation of God also. Thank you Jesus for everything and for my wife and children. All your beauty you have put in creation and even the peoples and cultures. Thank you for Jesus. Paul said a true Jew is one inwardly who's boast is in God. Thank you God for every color of hair every color of eyes and all the hot women all over the world to look at. Praise the Lord for the art and clothing.