Suffering with the cross

The cross is what Jesus told us to take up and carry and follow him.  He says take up your cross and follow him.  The cross is a meditation for our heart to cope with the suffering of life simultaneously keeping it open to the possibilities Jesus knows for us. It allows our heart to remain open to endure life and experience it same way baptism does.  The truth shuts our heart down I remain thoughtful of the cross and it allows me to heal internally externally physically mentally spiritually psychologically.  Feeling connection to the cross keep me open towards God his Spirit.  The power of God is the word of the cross Paul said.  The Holy Spirit was poured out at the cross. Consciousness of the cross increases satisfaction sexually even a little bit also.  Love is what God has at the cross.  Powerfully enduring life is our meditation on the cross.  I have art of the cross clothes of the cross and wear a cross and focus my heart and thought life on the cross sometimes the more I believe the easier life can be or not or death but it heals.  God has a future with the cross for each of us forever or not but until we die we have to focus on it to help us.  The cross also opens us up to pray more.  Our relationships can be healed also with the cross.  Forgiveness was given at the cross.  How to deal with life is with the cross.  The cross helps just to keep our focus on with what we are going through. The cross is like a metaphor or something of what life is sometimes also.  The devil doesn't want to die on the cross what Jesus kinda called Peter but Jesus can he knew. We don't have to make life worse than it is as the programmers though the cross is something God does. Oh yeah you want to talk about the cross we will make life hell for you what the programmers say like it's their duty their insane especially mormons or muslims. Like its their job to drive in the nails whatever no fear of God for them thinking that way at all.   Programmers are scum of the earth who knows. They think its their program to drive in the nails or something stupid or give people the mark of the beast like religous duty and call themselves honorable their satan dont want to follow Jesus. The strange people of mexico aint as stupid that they want to be racist against all day long. Strange people are the programmers.  They don't know if life hurts I guess for someone else especially. They are just demons that are women that way a lot also.  I am not commanding anybody to do a drive by either something strange they act like is God telling them maybe to start fires who knows what is going on though.   They don't ever know what is going on especially with God get saved.  Just go to the cross what I believe this life is.